dhurrr...bhallagchena...bolechilam na i hate late nite posts...i am in weird moods most of the times...specially nowadays...everything is going haywire...lots of changes...too hard to digest...

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1.a certain phone call made me rush to 8 b today for no obvious reasons at all...
2.a few sms es make me smile at myself for hours...
3.a cup of coffee with certain few leave me glowing for hours...
4.the prospect of going over to some place does make me have butterflies in my tummy...
5.and my school friends calling up suddenly just like that and the prospect of a plan of meeting them ...no matter what...makes me
amazingly excited and immensely happy...

no i don't really wish for any change after all...after all if u have someone whose one sms can make smile at urself in the
bus and not even care whether people are looking or not...then who needs somebody else...if a missed call can make you finish your stupid paper in a
hurry and rush then everythings fine...it may not last...i know it is not going to...but then nothing does...at least it did for a few days...

realisation...

i feel i have got an amazing capability of not even looking at things when they stare point-blank at your face...i can continue to be oddly blank unless the facts give me a sharp jibe or even a rude shock garnished with humiliation or embarrasment at times...people do call me naive or gullible at times...but i consider this behaviour of mine owing to nothing but utter stupidity

a spoonful magic

i am feeling miserable...alone...

i tried amitabha ghosh...agatha christie...

maybe it is time to go back to harry potter...

wingardium laviosa!!

it does not even matter...

telling myself it is not important over and over again...i now know it is not so...

sms and scraps, most importantly it is ur instincts which count and tell you the truth...

a single yes shakes me up...

i know it is not easy ,i shall not even endeavour to make it so...

i just begin by doing the hardest thing...i forgive myself...

the last year...

In front of the keyboard I sit reflecting on the past year…I dare say one of the most important years of my life…a year which made me stand in front of my weakness…a year which made me face my fears…a year which exposed my insecurities…a year which taught me to trust people…most importantly a year which taught me the importance of right and wrong…and pointed out the necessity of remaining true to oneself otherwise how hard looking at oneself in the mirror may become…

This year marked several important events particularly in my personal life…owing to certain people …
1. srijani thank you dear for being there…just your presence still matters a lot…
2. debolina for being a friend…
3. sohini di…though this year we had our share of differences, though I have been very rude and indifferent at times still you are an amazing person and the best sister one can have…
4. eman da…only two words for you …hats off!!
5. satyaki da…you do make a difference…
6. subha and debo…for making me feel I belong to the department…

These are only a few to state …arko da ,biju, honey each are very special to me…I will miss u guys a lot!!i mean when I felt there is nobody to trust…I felt alone…lost…I felt low…I could not even gather up the courage to look at myself …knowingly or unknowingly u guys have been there…don’t really know what would have done without u!!thakn you jupc…for giving me all these… for giving me a gamut of experience to cherish and remember all my life…thakn u jupc for giving me such amazing friends…thank you jupc for bakkhali and benaras …those were experiences of a lifetime…

tagged...

okkayy...so on being tagged here i am writing down 25 random things about myself...though i can't see a reason why on earth would anybody be interetsed in reading my stupid blabberings,but stilll here goes
1.i love black...actually i am obsessed with black be it the colour or characters.
2.i can't forgive not forget...specially myself.
3.i am utterly confused.
4.i practically love two names-aditya and siddharth one for reasons best known to me and the other because i just like the sound of it.
5.this tagging is a pain in the ass.i can't think of anything else.
6.i had a strange habit.i used to imagine myself as characters from books.i still do.
7.daydreaming sustains me.
8.i am nuts about nuts.
9.ccd was once a home to me and a friend of mine,all our pnpc used to happen there.i miss our haunt.
10.suddenly i realise writing down 25 things about myself is not as random as i thot it would be.
11.i would have loved to have been born in egypt.the barren deserts fascinates me.
12.i so do want to go for a trek amidst jungles and mountains.
13.benaras was an experience of a lifetime,i would love to go back.
14.a few smell s make me lose my senses.
15.i absolutely love dresses...i think they are gorgeous.
16.i adore kohl lined eyes.
17.recently i have developed a fetish for ballerinas.
18.i have terrible mood swings.
19.at times i can be strangely indifferent to people i care about.
20.i can eat drink and sleep on books.
21.i severely lack patience.
22.sometimes i miss having boys cut hair...i would love to go back to those days.
23.thank goodnesss,just 2 more to go.
24.the bhukkar i am,i love gorging on chocolate fantasy.
25.i was learning not to trust people,i failed miserably i don't know whether to be happy or sad!!