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1.a certain phone call made me rush to 8 b today for no obvious reasons at all...
2.a few sms es make me smile at myself for hours...
3.a cup of coffee with certain few leave me glowing for hours...
4.the prospect of going over to some place does make me have butterflies in my tummy...
5.and my school friends calling up suddenly just like that and the prospect of a plan of meeting them ...no matter what...makes me
amazingly excited and immensely happy...

no i don't really wish for any change after all...after all if u have someone whose one sms can make smile at urself in the
bus and not even care whether people are looking or not...then who needs somebody else...if a missed call can make you finish your stupid paper in a
hurry and rush then everythings fine...it may not last...i know it is not going to...but then nothing does...at least it did for a few days...

realisation...

i feel i have got an amazing capability of not even looking at things when they stare point-blank at your face...i can continue to be oddly blank unless the facts give me a sharp jibe or even a rude shock garnished with humiliation or embarrasment at times...people do call me naive or gullible at times...but i consider this behaviour of mine owing to nothing but utter stupidity

a spoonful magic

i am feeling miserable...alone...

i tried amitabha ghosh...agatha christie...

maybe it is time to go back to harry potter...

wingardium laviosa!!

it does not even matter...

telling myself it is not important over and over again...i now know it is not so...

sms and scraps, most importantly it is ur instincts which count and tell you the truth...

a single yes shakes me up...

i know it is not easy ,i shall not even endeavour to make it so...

i just begin by doing the hardest thing...i forgive myself...