Saturday, July 19, 2008

thoughts from the blue...

weird??huh!!well i cant help it ...i am sick of this entire process,i am tired of thinking and framing words tactfully before saying it,i am utterly bored of thinking twice or sometimes thrice before telling someone i care about u,damn it!!thats y i am so bothered up in fear of being taken for granted(people do behave weirdly when u tell them that) ... sometimes i do want to break free from this ridiculously mundane life and go someplace where i can do stuff without havng to answer the questions of why,when and where...i hate this general feeling of a malaise creeping up my neck when the reason is entirely in my head...as i friend acorn puts it "dude be sure of your situations before you make a big deal"...has it ever happened to u when you sit on the front seat of an auto half inside;the fast speeding wind touching your hand...that u feel a strange feeling of the speed of which the world is moving and if u dont keep pace u will get thrown any minute bogged down by your weird emotional baggage ...or has it ever happened that suddenly out of the blue u want to stand up on your head as if u can throw the unwanted thoughts out of ur head by doing that(ohh!!how i wish this was true...sigh!!) or maybe...ohh i suppose u have stopped reading this post by now mentally labelling me as in need of help...but then what do i care...u r probably someone i hardly know and i definately dont give u the right to judge me by just reading something i wrote when i was feeling blue as the bee(bee n blue??goddd...wats the matter with me..honestly)...anyways so throwing wind to all cautions i admit i am over sensitive and hyper...i tend to make things in my head and pretend as if they are true..i am very much prone to exaggeration so dont believe anything i say...actually i will be very upset if u do that i am trying to cut it down u know...and then i hate to admit but i am as confused as a six year old kid ...that is why i am always contradict myself and dont really what i want at the end of the day...as a matter fo fact i meant to start this blog to ask u all do u really need to think before leaping i mean wats wrong with doing things u want to instead of thinking thousand times at its consequences...but then i guess i have completely deviated from my point and have rattled on like a crazy kid whose just feeling low over what shes done ...if u have read this and u still have managed to keep your eyes from rolling in exasperation at your computer...then all i can say is congrats u have just completely wasted what i believe is a maximum of 5 minutes of your life...

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